Myself and Goa Times

Starting this January i had setup a new office in Vasco, Goa for my start up Mizzen Marine Pvt. Ltd. (www.mizzenmarine.com). It was a great experience all together seeing some of the dreams come true. This is going to be a sister branch of mizzen catering to the business of Equipment Supply in Goa and all over India. With it came along the band of new friends from various parts of the country. It feels like doing something good for the country and stuff like that.

When i started this the company there were a lot of hurdles, problems both at the management and financial aspect. people back then used to warn me regarding these issues. Now that i find myself dedicated to this work, praise from all around comes as a boon to my side. Some of them even complain whether i have turned to be more of a corporate than a friend but making anecdotal statements has just proven to be the other side of me. Its not the complete me yet i am standing here alone right now trying to survive and prove to the inner myself something very important that was at some point in doldrums. Now i am working for the team that depends on me.

The negative is i haven't celebrated a weekend since last couple of months. Couple of my friends also have complained about my extra work load and missing treats at times. No smoking up and boozing these days. Also in Goa since i have no one to party it feels a bit helpless and short of the herb. But February brings me hope because i am returning to mumbai for some work and hope to meet everyone and smoke up like a mad dog and party for a while.

But the best part of all is now i have new friends like the Hotel guy, The Cigarette guy, the Chaiwala dude, Neighbourwali Aunty who wakes me up daily at 8 AM and friends at Temptation(restaurant thats open 24 hrs, believe me thats true)

This is the only post on the blog when i am not high ............... enough :P

User Experience in the Software Industry.

Recently i was referring to the video on the post in NYTimes about Herbert Kelleher as he was stepping down from the Chairman of South West Airlines. In his talk in the annual meet of all the shareholders and employees present there, he mentions a very strong of an argument. He says "You have to treat your employees like customers", which clearly indicates the role of the employer - employee relationship in an industry for this case say Software Industry, when u treat ur employees the right way they treat the end customer the correct way. Developing the User Interface for that matter is something that is more of, "how creative" or say "thinking out of Box" kinda task. In an industry where a lot depends on how your client is easy handling a software(or some sci fi tech that u think u have developed), i suppose employee satisfaction is the key towards making it sell better. The moral of the story has been that creating a better client experience is all about creating on first hand a very good employee experience.

refer to the link for the interview video : Interview with SouthWest's Herb Kelleher

all set for GOA !

Finally its the time after all the hard work and dedication that my thing is getting recognized in the firm.
people all around me have already started boasting about what i have been doing here at Feast. It has been a good experience and all through a very friendly environment in the firm. My team is happy and thats an achievement to cherish. People getting drunk and saluting me is a good thing i suppose. All credits go to the boss for believing me. after the meeting with one of our VC's i shall be surely expecting a big hike in the pay. after all i got them a Govt Tender and beyond what i thought its going to be a Software that shall be incorporated in the syllabus as per the Educational board, Maharashtra. A trip to Goa with my team is surely a good incentive and a trip after that to IIT Kanpur is an add on as per me. I shall be leaving for the coast on 22nd of this month and the next week is surely going to be a vacation time for me.

for all these good times .. cheers again for bloging and the end of the world concept.

GOA Trip next month.

Well there have been plans emerging about a possible Goa trip in the next month at the firm. Lods of people are enthu about it. I shall be hanging around for a company. Hope i can find some good chick in goa also abundance of maal in the place is going to be a good thing to go for. cant think of a way how to propose some one in the office about it on the trip though but shall give it a try for sure.
This time its going to be Tito's pub that shall be the main theme of attraction in Goa. Last time couldn't visit it with my pals. But this time its for sure that i am going to go for it no matter how much it takes.

Shall post about hte trip and my adventures of the fourth kind in my subsequent posts.

feast for me ... :P

back again at work in the office i sometimes think about all the stupid gals around me at the workspace. One of them thinks she is a stud singer of some sort ... and cries around whenever given a chance. One of them never stops boasting of her virtues and beauties and bla-bla-bla ... What work meant in my dreams what certainly far away from this thing at least. Spending my most of the time coding for bosses and being a team leader has not been paying off good in terms of work environment in the office. So may be I must start thinking of shifting to a better place around in Bangalore or something like that. At least to find a better crowd of people around.
Talking about the boss dude he is pretty kewl and so never comes down to the office. Being an IITian is actually a bane sometimes cos you tend to forget the social framework and the funda of clock and timing. May be thats the case with me too :P
People have been crying from their first day about how bad their job is and that made me feel a bit uncomfortable sometimes. Well all this has been happening to me too for sometime now and now i know how they must be feeling from like six months being there, helpless and alone. I started complaining about the routine office shit on this article for the reason that i speak my mind here and if i didn't write it here then may be i wouldn't have felt better. Lets hope something works out pretty soon and may be i could find some thing good at my job to handle. Whats your opinion in this regard ?



To the anonymous ..
PS : everything posted here is subjected to change and and shall depend on office risks :P

i am Jack's raging penis,

Yeah good day all ya penises, well its a great day today and Jack hasn't yet jerked off in the morning. Yet i always hated the morning bath in the cum. But feels great when u just get water instead of that sticky, gluey, whitish like the best architecture of wherever. Today Jack has to give a presentation in the office, yesterday i heard him thinking about it in the night all long. It is his Job promotion that depends on this thing. He was a bit scared too and that made me a bit nervous and just had to shrink a bit in order to keep the guy a bit more in that situation. Jack once told me that i am the best thing he has ever got with him. He also makes me watch those pornographic scenes wherein my brethren fight hard on their counter parts. He sometimes stretches me for some weird reason and it always makes me think if he is comparing me with other such penis of a supermodel born so fair and smart in the lonely hills of that nation called whatever.

Our love for each other started from that day, when I was a bit excited on seeing the two roughly spherical projection on the T-shirt of Jack's friend Rwanda. She was gorgeously good looking and i had to be just as taut as a soldier in front of hers to prove my birth right of the cave entering business in wherever.That proved it all. The girl got scared and ran away. That day Jack was pretty pissed off at me and even heared him thinking about cutting me off sometimes. But later then he went to his room and locked himself up and started a movie. Oh my gosh you penises will never believe this shit I saw that night man. There were so many of our brethren in their luckily with their counter parts. There was a massive war going out there our people fighting hard to get in their caves. It was a fucking porn movie. I felt so glorified just by seing that shot, that battle field got erect to my toes and upright.
People Penises now its ur turn u speak of something interesting too.

Preface ..

chapters to be written shall follow up soon hope u have read about my "Particle Theory of Life and Matter" ? yeah thats just the beginning of the writing of my words. May be this thing will never get published. but whatsoever i never gave a fuck about it anyways. These shall be the chapters of my work tonight. the book shall explain some of my dreams that i have experienced, also including the ones when i wasn't sleeping. may be people hate the blogs because u never get to read the chapters in order. they always come up in the reverse order of time .. in short they are a bit chronologically fucked up. but any ways this book goes like this, couldnt have helped it pal ..


From the authors of the very own "Particle Theory of Life and Matter"

.... Me and Myself.

Partcile theory of Life and Matter

i was actually thinking that day after i got drunk and smashed out on the herb. I was somehow able to relate to all the actions of a being to that of a particle. I felt that i could define Life as The transfer of information between particles. everything can be thus put down to the fact that all the thinking that we put in about the after life and the immortality of soul is bull shit and has no significance. everything can be correlated to the fact that it just the function that defines the way the flow of information between the particles is. I was then trying to explain the things like, for example the very existence of the life form or what people commonly call as soul. Now all the well know theories of soul can just be explained using the particle theory by saying that soul is the function that explains the particle interaction and data flow amongst them. it has to depend on all the involved particles and thus includes the activities in the brain cells too. Now think about all the theories that have been put forth regarding the souls and their very existence. you might probably be able to find the answers to all of them.
The Big bang Theory as it is stated in many ways: started by splitting the particle into two parts and the subsequent matter and the anti-matter was generated giving out huge amount of energy which was lets say assumed in the form of heat and light. this clearly has nothing to do with all this crap of existence of the soul and all that bull shit. My theory is quite synchronous to what big bang theory wanted to convey. since every thing comprises of the matter(which can be sensed by the senses of living beings) and say something that we cant sense must be the anti matter in that respect. if u take the simplest of the life forms in this cosmos they are just particles interacting to generate a function of their activity which i termed as the flow of information between them.
Explaining the phenomenon of Thought process in the brain: people just try to wonder how the brain must actually be functioning sometimes. let me try to give you a broader perspective of all this. Brain cells transfer amongst them selves the information required by the other ones. when u consider this to the bottom most point of my theory then u might tell how this matches our basic assumption of the Particle theory. Now the thought process is a function that takes into account the required cells and other organs cells(like the organs of the sensory organs and the response organ cells) and acts accordingly. Apart from all these assumptions that we make for explaining the phenomenon of life forms and the basic observations in the cosmos, we are still wondering what is it that guides the function definition of all this transfer of the information. Some people might want to just call it as the Super Force or God(ly) effect of the nature. But people let me try to explain this fact too. We have always been focused on the laws that govern this universe. With our basic knowledge of what we know regrading some of the observations in out lives we can conclude on that fact that this particle nature can just be explained by the very basis of this laws. The interaction the functioning of the transfer mechanism again can be explained by these very basic laws like attraction and charged functionalities of the particles. may be u must read the next coming version of this article. needs time to get that mood again but expect it pretty soon. for all kinds of doubt and questions please post me a comment and i shall try to reply to it as soon as possible.

About girl friends..

yes sounds to be an interesting topic as it sounds to all of ya. must be a hot topic since stone-age :P .
weird yet so stupid to make people smile to their balls all the time when some guy talks about it. i sometimes think on this and and every time i have ever thought about this shit i remember the only gal i love. I met her in Bangalore and she was pretty kewl regarding things in life. i felt very nice just by being beside her and most of the time we spent, was probably on the bike there, were probably one of the most beautiful days in my life. The girl believes in some arbit fundaes in life and wants to live her life just like a dream and that's the fact that makes me feel great about this chick.
i am short of words to describe her and think, may be i must get stoned tonight to write more about her after the Valfi.... :))
wait for some happy times till i post more on this topic !

Fucking Midsems are back .... !

yeah they are back and are worse this time ..
feels like shitting all over the paper right from the start man. they are fucking boring this year worse i had to Cog to get passed in some shitty Sanskrit course. but this semester i have taken some silly courses, one of the courses i myself correct the papers of the whole batch and this includes me too .
well the professor quite believes in my judgement regarding the marks allotment to the pupils i suppose. Management and some mathematics courses related to probabilistic and stochastic methods + a bit of Graph theory and vector algebra, that's what is on the list for this sem.
i have never been writing regarding all these exams stuff by now on any of my blogs. btw i recently got this stupid idea. I have no time to mug hence shalth thy be using it to blog later.
i have an exam tommorrow. and shalt be working on stuff like cogging.
Dependability is stuff that's like the substratum of the man kind. it has been for sure since ages. why shalt be copying be called as a malpractice then ?
what i think is that people are fucking Hippocratic bastards as their governments are.

shall be posting some shit like this later someday ... may be that's enough for the day... :P


later .

about beer and good times!

sometimes this makes me think about why i chose beer over all the other beverages ?
one day when i was in fact continuing my research about the medicines and the stimulants commonly known to mankind, i went through beer, I was fascinated to know it dates back as the oldest ever beverage man has ever known to use, apart from water. History dates back to the Neolithic Age(cir. 10,000 B.C.) perhaps even before man learned to make bread! Thats some astonishing facts abt beer. Some studies have also revealed that Beer makes u a bit cleverer, some rats were tested with beer and they actually grew some more nerve cells. Now this might probably be the reason for alcohol addiction.

Some basic ingredients of beer are the following: Hops(Flavoring ingredient), Saccharomyces cerevisiae, Brewer's yeast, Malt, and Barley. Thanks to the different kinds of yeast god has ever made that make some finest quality beers, say the Lager Beer which is the most consumed beer in the world made from the Lager yeast.

Some benefits of Beer are as follows :
It helps to fight cancer and other cardio-vascular ailments, along with being a good hormetic nutrition for people in young age this also increases the longevity of a human being. People who have much cursed beer for their big bellies must stop saying that because thats just because beer is much rich in carbohydrates and proteins than Fats and thats probably because of their lack in exercise and muscle tone.

My favorite beer till date has been Bavaria that is available at J.K. Wines shop near the main gate.
Its a Lager beer with 7.9% alcohol and tastes better than any other local brand, its from Holland and lives up to its name in the list of worlds famous Beers, The pic above the post has been taken in my room.

centuries of slavery !!

its within my mind since a long time before. It all starts right from when u are in ur mother's womb, u are made to thin ku are dependent and thoughts later are mended accordingly by the sane world around u make u just try to ignore about all that crap that i am about to blog around :

Centuries of Slavery man has faced, and shalth that be because of his own kind and the stupid rules that he himself has made. this might sound to be a bit flashy and all that but in fact this topic has been hindering my thoughts since a pretty long time rather. I have been thinking on this as a boy long enough not to reveal all this on a blog like this. Rules i suppose are just a way for the democracies to bind the human kind to grow and that is the reason why people have always gone against free thought. Though there have always been debatable issues around us on the matters like freedom of thought and all that bull shit in through the constitutions of the globs, but never have made a proper sense to me as of though. I think a man never must have sorted to choose getting high if he was to ever believe in the notion of freedom of thought. Poeple have always tended to believe in this ideology of being free but all that bullshit just turns them down when it comes to just one simple question of sorrow in this world.

Relations for example have been a binding force altogether right since the times of babyhood. One has to fulfill the duties of his kind since the time he is born. He is supposed to give respect which i suppose is all bullshit. Though i my self sometimes think about the validity of relations between humans. I sometimes fail to understand if i were to be brought up by some one whoom hadn't given me the birth yet had taken care of, then i might have not given him that much of respect as he would ave expected from his own son. Giving Birth for example is agreed a noble jo to some people, but was it one when people actually wanted to have a baby, or say was it really the peimary thing on one's mind when some one was having a sexual intercourse?

Take a simple example of a baby trying to walk, it learns it very steps as a child and tries to free his hands of the parents many a times to just some how show them that it wants to be independent individual. But then the load of rules dumped on his head later makes him feel something els. He tries to believe in the thing of dependency and mutual help later in life and makes up his mind set on things like he is because of his care takers and not fully because of himself.

what point i ma probably trying to make tonight is that, it must something that we really need to think on, what makes a person feel better when he is high, or rather take the case when he is happy. Its probably the feeling of independent attitude that some how creeps in his mind at those moments. In times of success i think the man is rather happy on being free some degree.


shall kee posting later on this issue, may when i'm high the next time.

PAF is back again !!!

This year again its back with more colors than usual and its more beautiful than usual i suppose. A great team i have to work with i think, shall make some great music this time will be great working on some punjabi fused with some of mine. Though I regret not being a part of the choreo team where some hot chicks are there. Well who the fuck cares about H-11 gals ...(except for some fucked up matka's though)...

Had the first all team meeting recently. It was a bit too shady rather to be called as a meeting.
lets c what happens next. shall be posting more news on this later ..

liquor caffeine, cetirizine hydrochloride + marijuana

yeah some time back i was actually researching on things like that ..

got some talks listened to from Sridhar recently. Some psychadelic shit like that rather sounds interesting to me and also is fascinating rather.

Talking abt the stimulating things around me now : Makes me some how feel that we are infact caged in a world of virtualities and boundaries where in reality there arent any thing like that. governments have always bound the induviduals by rules and duties of shit worth and ruthless dominance. The common man hda never a chance until he discovered someting stumulating, something that showed him the other side of life, something tht made him feel more importantly of the worth less boundaries he has been respecting since a long time. if i leave a child on some lonely island may be he could discover some laws of nature that could be mended easily may be controverse against ones in this world made by cunts like Newton and Eisntein.

Talking abt me getting high is this nice feeling when i feel liberated and at the same ime burning to prove the world a wrong thing that has been going this way since ages. I once had a nild dose of marijuana some time a year back and i thought of commiting a suicide. I couldnt recall the reason yet.. trying hard since that next evening when i woke up after 14Hrs of sleep. I have stopped taking any further doses of that shit later after my pals reported this incident ot me later that next day. I still like to get high party out the whole fucking night and get stonned seldom, but deep in my heart i still feel I could have found some thing important every previous time i got high. makes me think of lots of things simultaneously and that too flashing like shits of things passing in my mind concurrently.

Caffein has always been my companion in good times, even when i feel like just having something to fill my stomach. its a great stimulant man as ever discovered on this planet, Mother nature to its fullest fucking best giving ever i suppose. Men must have also discovered Nicotine on some fire in the jungle sometime. when tribals in the alps running around felt the smoke of some help. later marijuana followed this just like naturally inhereiting from smoke.

Liquor to me holds a lot of respect to it self when it comes to times when u don't want to get smashed yet u want to be a bit though. Dilema u feel go for a liquor and to be on a safe side, have some whiskey(brand matters a lot i think !).

Keep looking for the next post on how Puking shall just be a good thing to do for all the boozers who feel guilty abt it ....

feels great when u are no longer that unemployed bastard

yeah feels great when some one has got a Job or something of that sort .
I've got one a couple a days ago. I felt this same feelingwhen i met the girl of my dreams atleast till today i think she is the one i was looking for. people here have tried to make a fuss of it every second i never gave a fuck abt that anyways. its party time here in My hostel . booze running all over my blood over and over again every day. beer and whyskeys that i pee in the morning everyday remind me of how toxic i have become recently since a few days.
people have always treated pals hre around in a very good fashion after a Job or something great of that sort. when i got a job after a long array of interviews that i had to give finally able to convince Airwana Networks in Bangalore. It was 9th Jan '07 when i gave the interview. I was given the assurance of something like the following : mw and some gulti choot were the probables of the job post that they were thinking to offer, The dialea was they wanted to hire only one guy and to hire one more, stupid ass neede their boss's permission. so these people keep everything on hold and make me awake for the rest of the night. After the night early in the morning when i appraoch the placement team they say that they have hired two people and that i was none amongst them.
this came to me like a blow in the face straigh. bluffers stupid people i thought. these guys surely don't know how to talk and what to talk. they turn me down right away. Then after all this traume and some more beer in SP that afternoon i appear for the net interview and then wait for the results of this next firm. after the sad news i now some how make my self walk to staff Canteen to buy me some smoke for the night. and at my hostel gate i get a call. I pick it up to find some cute lady speaking. she says to me in a tone like my girls friend does sometimes when she wants to buy something . and tells me she is the same lady hwo interviewed me las day for Airwana. and out of nothing she wants to offer me a Job for this purpose. she also tells me that i was always their first choice but she wanted to talk for a different post for me than compared to those two choots that she had recruited the other day .
thats how i was no longer an unemployed bastard

what does it feel after getting a farra (FR)

FR a grade that means u have fucked up ur sem in IIT and that get prepared for the wrath of the professor u start hating after or may be to love him after he has declared the grade.
in my case i was a bit confused .. i hate him for making me cry.. that thing i never ever tried even when i was in a worse condition than i ma at already. well i like the guy because he makes me think one important thing that i tend to forget all the time. its this " life goes on and failures are a part of it" may be i will see the next better day in the rest of my life after i learn that. that's what i currently condole my self with.
what it feels getting a farra (FR grade):
life seems to like sink before u in front of ur hands and u do nothing but to stare at it and watch it go down. except ur friends around are always there to tell u that its not the end all that shit u don't like to hear and want to get depressed again. I shag all the night along just to forget all that shit and be calm. it helped me before but some how i don't know why it isn't working today !!! fucking can't help my self yelling at my self.
listening to songs and shit like that doesn't help at all, all my walks tend to like start giving me a fucking message i don't know why... they were never so uncool before, what they were and what i liked abt them was that they were just fucking walks in just some part of my life.
atleast i am not thinking abt that right now .
what i a concentrating here is typing, and fucking typing it is after all .
life seems so good i am thinking abt new and more ideas, may be i mus write some book on this.

sridhar, poor guy tells me he was destined to be here to give me some good words abt life and all that... what i felt bad was a bit abt this saying of his. i never wanted him to be here yet together for this reason atleast. fucking brave and daring actions from him make me feel fight back and care nothing else abt else. we are but just one part of life learning abt winning and losing, no one else ever will learn in life probably in the style like we had.
rebelling aginst the world our parents teachers and everyone around us, fighting for that every bit we own from our life our moments and every single drop of it, failing to conserve yet learning from the fall everytime we lost it.
may be i am feeling good now and shall blog abt it later sometime. may be another version of my grief want time to srping out later sometime..

Need for Speed Carbon .... yeah the game is good !!

These days i am fucking around playing NFS carbon the new game in town .
nice graphics and minimum requirements rather i would say.
tha game is all about racing in the clifs and risks of falling by the side if u slide/ slip by any chance !
The game is all about racing for ur territory and winning others regions in the NFS world map !

cool night time racing has its own charm in the game again ...
low light makes the gae more challenging and interesting
so if u are a game freak and more importantly if u are a NFS freak this game is just for u folks play it admire it and have some time.
and do not forget to wear ur seat belts !! ;)

projects on web bloging and the end of world !!

hahha .....
a stupid to start with ..seems to me ,
take it as a test to check if this blogging shit works atleast !
shall be doing a project in culture and media on web internet blogs..
sounds enough stupid but thats the reason why i took it ..
blogging for me is to share ur thoughts even with zero probabillity that some stupid guy shall someday see it !
sometimes i think when we shall die its just the blogs of ours that are the only source for totally arbit people to know us !
they cant contact us through any one but by surfing through the blogs oncw they come across my blog they shall surely know me if they read all this shit !
blogs can be one source of transfer of information !
i think the life as such is just mere transfer of information ... even at molecular level if u shall consider. its just the transfer of information.
good for a start and shall keep it updated ... may be i'll become some guru of philoso[hical shit someday ..
till then lets have a nice time !