yeah feels great when some one has got a Job or something of that sort .
I've got one a couple a days ago. I felt this same feelingwhen i met the girl of my dreams atleast till today i think she is the one i was looking for. people here have tried to make a fuss of it every second i never gave a fuck abt that anyways. its party time here in My hostel . booze running all over my blood over and over again every day. beer and whyskeys that i pee in the morning everyday remind me of how toxic i have become recently since a few days.
people have always treated pals hre around in a very good fashion after a Job or something great of that sort. when i got a job after a long array of interviews that i had to give finally able to convince Airwana Networks in Bangalore. It was 9th Jan '07 when i gave the interview. I was given the assurance of something like the following : mw and some gulti choot were the probables of the job post that they were thinking to offer, The dialea was they wanted to hire only one guy and to hire one more, stupid ass neede their boss's permission. so these people keep everything on hold and make me awake for the rest of the night. After the night early in the morning when i appraoch the placement team they say that they have hired two people and that i was none amongst them.
this came to me like a blow in the face straigh. bluffers stupid people i thought. these guys surely don't know how to talk and what to talk. they turn me down right away. Then after all this traume and some more beer in SP that afternoon i appear for the net interview and then wait for the results of this next firm. after the sad news i now some how make my self walk to staff Canteen to buy me some smoke for the night. and at my hostel gate i get a call. I pick it up to find some cute lady speaking. she says to me in a tone like my girls friend does sometimes when she wants to buy something . and tells me she is the same lady hwo interviewed me las day for Airwana. and out of nothing she wants to offer me a Job for this purpose. she also tells me that i was always their first choice but she wanted to talk for a different post for me than compared to those two choots that she had recruited the other day .
thats how i was no longer an unemployed bastard
Friday
what does it feel after getting a farra (FR)
FR a grade that means u have fucked up ur sem in IIT and that get prepared for the wrath of the professor u start hating after or may be to love him after he has declared the grade.
in my case i was a bit confused .. i hate him for making me cry.. that thing i never ever tried even when i was in a worse condition than i ma at already. well i like the guy because he makes me think one important thing that i tend to forget all the time. its this " life goes on and failures are a part of it" may be i will see the next better day in the rest of my life after i learn that. that's what i currently condole my self with.
what it feels getting a farra (FR grade):
life seems to like sink before u in front of ur hands and u do nothing but to stare at it and watch it go down. except ur friends around are always there to tell u that its not the end all that shit u don't like to hear and want to get depressed again. I shag all the night along just to forget all that shit and be calm. it helped me before but some how i don't know why it isn't working today !!! fucking can't help my self yelling at my self.
listening to songs and shit like that doesn't help at all, all my walks tend to like start giving me a fucking message i don't know why... they were never so uncool before, what they were and what i liked abt them was that they were just fucking walks in just some part of my life.
atleast i am not thinking abt that right now .
what i a concentrating here is typing, and fucking typing it is after all .
life seems so good i am thinking abt new and more ideas, may be i mus write some book on this.
sridhar, poor guy tells me he was destined to be here to give me some good words abt life and all that... what i felt bad was a bit abt this saying of his. i never wanted him to be here yet together for this reason atleast. fucking brave and daring actions from him make me feel fight back and care nothing else abt else. we are but just one part of life learning abt winning and losing, no one else ever will learn in life probably in the style like we had.
rebelling aginst the world our parents teachers and everyone around us, fighting for that every bit we own from our life our moments and every single drop of it, failing to conserve yet learning from the fall everytime we lost it.
may be i am feeling good now and shall blog abt it later sometime. may be another version of my grief want time to srping out later sometime..
in my case i was a bit confused .. i hate him for making me cry.. that thing i never ever tried even when i was in a worse condition than i ma at already. well i like the guy because he makes me think one important thing that i tend to forget all the time. its this " life goes on and failures are a part of it" may be i will see the next better day in the rest of my life after i learn that. that's what i currently condole my self with.
what it feels getting a farra (FR grade):
life seems to like sink before u in front of ur hands and u do nothing but to stare at it and watch it go down. except ur friends around are always there to tell u that its not the end all that shit u don't like to hear and want to get depressed again. I shag all the night along just to forget all that shit and be calm. it helped me before but some how i don't know why it isn't working today !!! fucking can't help my self yelling at my self.
listening to songs and shit like that doesn't help at all, all my walks tend to like start giving me a fucking message i don't know why... they were never so uncool before, what they were and what i liked abt them was that they were just fucking walks in just some part of my life.
atleast i am not thinking abt that right now .
what i a concentrating here is typing, and fucking typing it is after all .
life seems so good i am thinking abt new and more ideas, may be i mus write some book on this.
sridhar, poor guy tells me he was destined to be here to give me some good words abt life and all that... what i felt bad was a bit abt this saying of his. i never wanted him to be here yet together for this reason atleast. fucking brave and daring actions from him make me feel fight back and care nothing else abt else. we are but just one part of life learning abt winning and losing, no one else ever will learn in life probably in the style like we had.
rebelling aginst the world our parents teachers and everyone around us, fighting for that every bit we own from our life our moments and every single drop of it, failing to conserve yet learning from the fall everytime we lost it.
may be i am feeling good now and shall blog abt it later sometime. may be another version of my grief want time to srping out later sometime..
Monday
Need for Speed Carbon .... yeah the game is good !!
These days i am fucking around playing NFS carbon the new game in town .
nice graphics and minimum requirements rather i would say.
tha game is all about racing in the clifs and risks of falling by the side if u slide/ slip by any chance !
The game is all about racing for ur territory and winning others regions in the NFS world map !
cool night time racing has its own charm in the game again ...
low light makes the gae more challenging and interesting
so if u are a game freak and more importantly if u are a NFS freak this game is just for u folks play it admire it and have some time.
and do not forget to wear ur seat belts !! ;)
Friday
projects on web bloging and the end of world !!
hahha .....
a stupid to start with ..seems to me ,
take it as a test to check if this blogging shit works atleast !
shall be doing a project in culture and media on web internet blogs..
sounds enough stupid but thats the reason why i took it ..
blogging for me is to share ur thoughts even with zero probabillity that some stupid guy shall someday see it !
sometimes i think when we shall die its just the blogs of ours that are the only source for totally arbit people to know us !
they cant contact us through any one but by surfing through the blogs oncw they come across my blog they shall surely know me if they read all this shit !
blogs can be one source of transfer of information !
i think the life as such is just mere transfer of information ... even at molecular level if u shall consider. its just the transfer of information.
good for a start and shall keep it updated ... may be i'll become some guru of philoso[hical shit someday ..
till then lets have a nice time !
a stupid to start with ..seems to me ,
take it as a test to check if this blogging shit works atleast !
shall be doing a project in culture and media on web internet blogs..
sounds enough stupid but thats the reason why i took it ..
blogging for me is to share ur thoughts even with zero probabillity that some stupid guy shall someday see it !
sometimes i think when we shall die its just the blogs of ours that are the only source for totally arbit people to know us !
they cant contact us through any one but by surfing through the blogs oncw they come across my blog they shall surely know me if they read all this shit !
blogs can be one source of transfer of information !
i think the life as such is just mere transfer of information ... even at molecular level if u shall consider. its just the transfer of information.
good for a start and shall keep it updated ... may be i'll become some guru of philoso[hical shit someday ..
till then lets have a nice time !
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